i'm not jealous. for dinner i had three servings of organic soy bean pasta. i had a warm smoothie that i made in a small pot on my hotplate. i stirred organic cranberries, organic soy milk, organic bananas, and some almonds. i stirred it very fast with four chopsticks in each hand. i used both my hands to stir it. some splashed on my face. i ate the smoothie with a soup spoon. i think i had over 80g soy protein.
then i was bored so i went outside and ran around for a while in agony. sometimes i slowed down a little to scream in agony. when i came home i showered and sat on my bed and cried a little, and then stared at my hotplate for twenty minutes before going to sleep.