Eat When You Feel Sad

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Robert is alone. Robert eats a banana and one half of a small container of mulberries. Robert feels hungry. Robert smokes pipe tobacco. Robert walks to his computer to play the album Crooked Rain, Crooked Rain, by Pavement. Robert feels happy. Robert finishes smoking pipe tobacco. Robert feels uneasy. Robert gets under his blanket and turns the light out. Jim comes home. Robert smokes pot with Jim. Robert and Jim ride bikes to a party. Robert sees someone he knows on the way to the party and yells the person’s name and stops his bicycle and thinks he might have dropped his keys and then feels his pocket and realizes he didn’t drop his keys. Robert rides the rest of the way to the party. Robert goes inside and drinks beer and liquor. Robert feels sad. Robert longs for the girls at the party. Robert wakes up at eleven AM on a small sofa he remembers having sat on the night before. Robert moves to another small sofa, closer to his friends. Robert doesn’t say anything. Robert walks to the bathroom. Robert feels upset. Robert tries to throw up. Robert’s friends say they’re going to go to a diner. One of them asks Robert if he’d like to go. Robert weighs his options. Robert doesn’t answer. Robert’s friends leave. Robert rides his bicycle home. Robert sleeps for four hours. Robert takes a bath. He reads the first story in Lorrie Moore’s book, Birds of America. Robert takes a shower. Robert goes to WholeFoods and buys things for dinner. Robert comes home and goes on MySpace. Then Robert makes dinner and eats it alone. Robert thinks “I wish I had a more comfortable chair to sit on while I eat dinner.” Robert washes dishes. Robert listens to the album Nothing Feels Good by The Promise Ring and talks to someone on Gmail and someone on AIM. Robert feels bad.